i feel so cool

If I were more biology-oriented, I'd want to go into microbiology. It's so cool--I now know five different ways to die that involve bleeding from the eyes. Also, I have developed a newfound paranoia of picnics and buffets.

Actually, I have a lot of new paranoias. I might turn into one of those people that hates shaking hands (who knows where those have been--and do you know how many hemorrhagic diseases are transmitted orally???). That's rude, though, so I'll probably just start washing compulsively.

Anyways. Pathogenic microbes has eaten my life. Exam on Friday.
Pray for me. >.<

Pax
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feminiwoo

For all the girls who say "Guys just understand me better!"

Usually they just want in your pants.
No, not all the time, but most of the time. Think about it--can you name a single truly ugly girl that has more male than female friends?

Listen, it's fine to have male friends. Really great, actually, and I'm speaking as the first female cabinet member of my college's Nerf club (which was, until I joined, all male). But there's got to be balance; if you have no female friends, there's a problem--and if we're all honest with ourselves, it's probably you.

Maybe you like the validation. This isn't a crime--most of us need reassurance that we can draw male interest, even in the most platonic form. Maybe you just have really masculine interests. Also totally ok. However, you shouldn't let these aspects of your personality completely define you. If you need male validation, don't let it reach the point that you start selling off pieces of yourself for it. Explore other aspects of your personality--develop hobbies, learn a new skill, inhabit a rich life that doesn't revolve around men.

If you're all about video gaming, martial arts, quantum mechanics, or something else that has (traditionally) been male dominated, that's fantastic! You are probably super cool! Be proud to be such a strong, capable woman. Don't feel like you need to reject your femininity, which is a crucial part of your personality whether you want to admit it or not--instead, use it to bring a fresh perspective to your field. There is no need to be ashamed of being "girly"--you've already shown that being a woman does not make you weak.

Be female and proud.
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Pax

omfgfargleface

I love everything about this episode.

http://www.hulu.com/watch/349846/up-all-night-the-proposals

"And now Tony's dead! Oh, you boys and your knives."

Song of the Week: http://youtu.be/Ua26qTEK25U

Pax
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a separate self

Bluebeard

This door you might not open, and you did;
So enter now, and see for what slight thing
You are betrayed.... Here is no treasure hid,
No cauldron, no clear crystal mirroring
The sought-for truth, no heads of women slain
For greed like yours, no writhings of distress,
But only what you see.... Look yet again—
An empty room, cobwebbed and comfortless.
Yet this alone out of my life I kept
Unto myself, lest any know me quite;
And you did so profane me when you crept
Unto the threshold of this room to-night
That I must never more behold your face.
This now is yours. I seek another place.

--Edna St. Vincent Millay
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I think that it's important to be (at least a little) reserved. Hold just a bit back in your interactions with other people. Be old-fashioned.

This definitely applies online, where it's so easy to tell secrets while blanketed in anonymity. The thing is, your secrets are your secrets, whether the one you're telling knows you as Sarah Smith or CheesecakeHead, and they are a crucial part of what defines you. Keeping yourself to yourself allows you to make what may be one of the most powerful statements in the world--but this is not all that I am.

This is not all that I am.
The comic book industry is founded on the need to be more than anyone knows. It is a gift you can give yourself, simply by diversifying, by having many aspects to your life. And not sharing everything with everyone. It keeps things in a sense of proportion, so you can remember the world is bigger than this fight, this relationship, this loss.

You ought to give of yourself to other people. You ought to build deep and lasting friendships, to share your life and love with wonderful people. But set something aside--be it ever so small--so you can remember how big the world really is.

Pax
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cooking protip #1

When making scrambled eggs, add a little milk. It lets you use 2 instead of 3, and the eggs are fluffier.

Also, cook on med-high instead of high, so your eggs aren't tough.

Pax
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story of my life

Officer: Don't ever run after a man. That's a sure way to lose him.
Brigitte: I know, but I can't help myself.
     --Une Parisienne

think about it

I dare you to name one movie in which the most sexually desirable female has short hair.

No, really. Think about it.

The "hot chick" in the movies? Always has long hair. The chicks with short hair are the sidekicks.

Kind of makes you wonder if your friends aren't engaging in a little friendly sabotage whenever you get a haircut and they start cooing "How cuuuuute!"

(Or maybe you've passed sexy and gone straight to awesome. I know I could live with that.)

Pax
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subject to change

We all have one. Some take it more seriously than others. I've become convinced that your bucket list may be your defining characteristic--kind of like an outline for your life. They're difficult to write--I always have the feeling that I'm leaving something off--but crucial all the same.

I like the idea of having a fluid list to refer to, so I'm going to keep one here.

1. Learn another language. Become as fluent as possible.
2. Live in another country for a year or longer.
3. Get my PhD.
4. Visit every continent.
5. Kiss a boy.
6. Be able to clearly express why I believe what I believe.
7. Write a novel.

Some of these are short term goals. Some are long term goals.Some are very long term goals.
And I expect that I'll add more as I live more, find more things I want to do.

That's ok. It wouldn't be much of a bucket list if it didn't take a lifetime.

Pax
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convincing myself to get up

Don't worry! I am not in the throes of overwhelming depression! (I save that for finals week.) It's just that my landlord is working on the hall outside the bathroom door, and I've got to take a shower today. This may be awkward

I was hoping that he would take the noon hour off, but he's apparently too hard-working for that. Dammit.

Bah. I have things to do. He'll be too busy knocking down walls to hear the shower going, anyways. Up and at 'em.

Pax
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